When I wanna Catch hold of something...

How true....

At least for me....

For the moment...

When I most wanted to catch hold of something

It just passes me by

Oh well.. Life goes on...

Outbreak...

emotional outbreak.. tearing outside...
Good in a sense that the unca asking for $$ was turned away after a single "Miss"
I think he's scared that I will burst out crying and all the blame will be laid on him

Tearing in the public transport and fumbling for tissues
Only to find... the tissue pack is in another bag which means... no tissues
Great...
And purposely sitting right at the back of the transport with a turned away head helps ensures that no one sees that
But then sniffing sounds can't be blocked

And nobody (the public and the culprits) bothers...
Sigh...

Is it me or the friends that I've made?
Some frens will tell me to let go and make new friends
Others will tell me... "they are like that one"... again... duh....

I dun know what I'm writing or doing anymore...

Partying

I have been partying more recently
It could be a no childhood syndrome where I didn't get to do all these when I was younger or still schooling
But i guess it's kind of good that I only started this when I'm older, cos....

I'm more in control
I have the finances to do it instead of depending on the allowance provided by the parents
I know what is right and what is wrong, and so I do not go overboard with the drinking ~ stares at drunk people zzz-ing by the roadside....
I like to boogie since young, cues chinese dance club, mass dance, hip hop, tampourine...
Thus, it's no surprise that I still like to boogie now
It's like a sort of release to do it to the fast paced music amidst like-minded individuals
Plus, it is a form of exercise, sans the alcohol.
LOL!

The cute and non-so-cute guys approaching you despite your advancing age, helps the ego lots lots too. heh! =D

Getting out

I want to and I hope that I am slowly getting out of this Rut that I am in.
I just wish it will happen faster...
Feelings etc be damned!
Quiet down will u and stop feeling sorry for yourself!

Off...

I wanna break free

Suddenly the song "I wanna break free" resonates through my brain...
Well, I only know that statement in the song. Not sure what the rest of the lyrics say. LOL!

But seriously, I do wanna break free from this mundane life
That explains the frequent travelling and diving trips i have had this year and the sudden "DRASTIC" drop in my bank account.

Time to earn back the $$ for the next getaway.
Sigh....

Shoebox Units?

So the papers are saying that more people are buying shoebox units and they are gaining in popularity..
Sure...

They very positive hor?

But the fact is...
Shoebox units are more suitable for singles or couples or for people who just want a taste of private property living.
We just want to say, Hey! we stayed in Private Property (before)!!
Or just want to enjoy the perks of it, such as security, gym, swimming pool or any other sports facilities.
I am sure that there are those who enjoyed or want to stay there.
After all, it is more cozy and less cleaning (tired lah) involved.
But I still feel that it is too small.
Much too small.

Accommodation has been shrinking in size
Population has been ballooning with the influx of other people, not babies by the local population
Everything has been increasing in price
The average family cannot afford new houses nowadays with many in debt... life long debts...
They cannot help but go for smaller units...

I still want my 2-3 bedroom house
But due to the escalating prices, I may need to opt for a shoebox as well?
Life sucks... =(

Whatever

so if u asked me abt an outing. I msg u to ask where is it and u replied like 10 mins before the meeting time on the location which I cannot find in Google map, what am i supposed to assume?

Someone keeps telling me it's not wat I tink.
But things keep happening "coincidentally" that it becomes too much of a coincidence.

Can u not make me upset at work?
Cues puffy red eyes...

Whatever la
U all go your all merry way

I will not be so obvious as to delete my entire FB account, but I shall refrain fr going in anymore...

Thanks but no thanks for the most upsetting one year of my life...

What are Words

Love this song.... 

What Are Words

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name
You'll see

How every single promise I'll keep
'Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave
When you need me most?

What are words
If you really don't mean them when you say them?
What are words
If they're only for good times, then they don't?

When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent
Just for me and I know I'm meant
To be where I am
And I'm gonna be

Standing right beside her tonight
And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave
When she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them when you say them?
What are words
If they're only for good times, then they don't?

When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, they never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here
Forever more

Every single promise I keep
'Cause what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave
When you need me most?

I'm forever keeping my angel close

knowing and sad...

sometimes, u get to know about something
and that something makes u hurt and sad
that's what's happening now...

I'm hurt and I'm sad...

Giving up on studies..

I think i really have enough of studies
I can't build up the motivation and the urge to study for the supposedly oral test tomorrow
My thot is to just tell the teacher to skip me for the oral and go for the rest.
I do not mind failing
After all, it was a spur of the moment thing and with no friends accompanying me or made in the class, i really dun have the excitement or motivation to study for it leh...

Oh well...

Blogging..

Yes, I have had a few blogs.
Most are opened to my friends to read
but all are silent now, deleted, left alone, cast away...

I have opened up this new one and selected to keep this silent for now
Unknown by my friends...
Although I am still using my internet nick that many knows me by

It's still on whinings, grumblings and gripes about people, about life in general
But I feel these are personal.
It's more of an online diary rather than a physical diary
where I am able to let off steam...

I wonder if they have a private protect function here....

Perhaps when I am able to let go of certain issues, I will be able to write happier stuffs?

Let's see what will happen in future bah and take things as they come...

Blues...

Out for a holiday hiatus to see creatures underwater and relax on land
And found out that the group had numerous activities within that one week!
Shows something rite
Maybe I'm just sensitive
I do not mind admitting that
But when u are back already and still not invited to the activities...
Shows something?

Disengage, reject, dissociate, break off.....
I think I want to get away from most members of the group.
I do not know why my fixation with them in the first place,
but I just want to break off now.

Easier said then done... sigh... =(

Self Reflections

It's easy to wallow is self-pity and despair
After all, it is a me, I society
where everything is about self

At times, we glimpse a sign of empathy for our fellow humans
But it's easier to sink into the pit of self denial and emotional upheaval

You can be having fun, laughing with the rest of them
Feeling joyful and happy
Having a wonderful time
But the next moment, you can be sinking down again

You wish for someone to bring you out
Of for a way out of this
Yet it is not easy for either to happen

I am still looking for the way out.
Please show me the EXIT?
Thanks!

Traveling...

Can't wait for my trip!!

On hiatus for a week.... =D

Sun Sand Sea, here I come!!

I dun understand

I dun understand why people must insist on standing at the exit doorway and block pax from scanning their cards out. Like... we have to do a gym or yoga movement to reach the scanner just so that we have to scan out.

I dun understand why some are so impatient to get to the seat that the block the steps for pax trying to move out from the bus corridor to the exit area so that they can get off the bus. It's not as if the empty seats are gonna move anywhere. Just let us get off kay! Well, if u refuse to make way, then excuse me if I knocked against you (with my bag).

I dun understand why some people refuse to move in. Sure, your stop is next up or that area is your most favorite area to stand. But look at the people getting onto the bus or MRT and make way lah. Be more considerate. They are also anxious in getting to their next destination.

I dun understand why in the midst of your running for the bus, you can knock into people who are just standing there, or moving towards their next bus, with lots of space at the side for you to run through. Why? Cross eyes?

I dun understand why your arm has to rub against mine as you move down the aisle. Not once, but on THREE separate occasions!! Congratulations. You have officially made me wary of you and avoid you big time, every time I see you getting on the bus. If you are still gonna rub against my arm even when I have made the effort to avoid you, then be prepared to get screamed at for molestation. I would not think it is by accident then, especially since my action is quite big when I try to avoid you. Cues body move away from seat, slanted in big big.

I dun understand why your arm has to rub against my back especially since u guy, I gal. leave some space yah? This is SG, not wherever you came from. Personal space yah?

Sigh... the woes of Public Transportation...... =(