Happier?

So I feel happier if there's nothing going on and I dun need to see them?
Wunder full.....

I tink I should just keep myself occupied....

Korean

I skipped the 1st class as I had a company's event
I went to the 2nd class, thoroughly blurred and confused
I think I'm gonna fail this course....

Hurhurhur!

Oh well.. it was taken for fun anyway.

But it still sucks to fail...  :(

I now need to translate a song from korean to their roman alphabets.
OMG!! so fast do this liao and got homework!

I selected this. =)
I hope it's easy!

我爱你 I love you by 泰妍 from 《雅典娜.战争的女神》 

http://youtu.be/CAX2jLdl31M

Hurting..

It's because I care, so I hurt when the "care" is not reciprocated.
It's because I care, that every little thing carves itself into my mind and refuse to go away
It's because I care, so I get angry easily when things are not going where and how they should.
It's because I care, so I question when there are people who dun.

No matter how much I try to put it out of the mind, the questions are always there.
The hurt will lessen slowly but will always remain in my memory.
I hurt ~ but I dun usually show it.

I'm sorry for lashing out at a friend
And although said friend always say he understands
But deep down inside, I will always question it
Sorry....
If this affects our friendship, then there's nothing much I can say except sorry and move on sadly...

I'm quiet by nature...
Appearing cold and stand-of-ish at times.

But talk to me yah?

It's not easy..

Nobody said it will be easy
Getting over wounds
But slowly and gradually...
and hopefully if I see less, hear less, ...
Then I will recover?

On Twitter... retweeted by Lex, originally twitted by Joanne Peh
Some wounds can't be healed with time, they only become more manageable.

How true...

Another one that's always on my mind..
You can always forgive, but you will never forget it that easily

I wanted to say, "you will never forget" but I think it doesn't hold true for everyone.
So it became "you will never forget it that easily"...

Still trying to heal my "internal wounds"
Less than a month to go before the course is completed.
I hope that there's no more after this!! =(
*Sucks... *

Bus Stomping

I was probably asking for a bus stomp incident to occur yesterday... -_-'''
but i was frustrated leh!!
Super crowded bus sia...

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Incident 1
I was one of the last few to get onto the bus.
I practically pasted myself at the bus driver small entrance with the drop coin fee payment machine
This stupid worker squeezed onto the bus and bua-ed my backside with his arm!
Not once, but TWICE!!
Oi, I know crowded bus leh, but at least show some courtesy rite?!
At least say sorry lah!
But noooooo... he never........

So i turned and faced the front when I next got a chance to do so, with my bags blocking the front.
He wanna bua, also bua my bags can..

Then when the bus doors opened, he stepped back and stepped on me without a sorry too!
I said loudly, first in mandarin, then in english that he stepped on me
But he doesn't seem to understand me at all...

ARRGHHHHH!!!!

Incident 2
We were moving in, in the bus, so that people can get up, guy squeezed past me while I was waiting for the people in front of me to move. grrr...
Then an Auntie tried to do the same too!
Me: Auntie! 你可以不要再挤了吗！我也要进去的！ (can u stop squeezing! I also wanna move in!)
Auntie: 可是他们没有动。。。 (but they are not moving...)
I simply ignored her....

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Have some patience can? People are also trying to move...
I tink I'm asking to be stomped if the auntie actually started shouting at me...
*shivers* Oh well, what's past is passed...

Ugly public transport actions are quite aplenty
It's a matter of whether we see it or not and whether we want to action on it.

My friend who just sold off her car, messaged me the other day that the public transport here is crazy
With the increasing number of people in Singapore, that is something which cannot be avoided.
*shrugs*

Gone-ed

My old blog address are all gone... taken by some others although I do not see any entry on the accounts. [update: i tink wrong address. =P dun tink i created any on blogspot before. =P ] Sigh... such is life...

I wanted to keep my grumblings to myself
I wanted to keep away from Public
I wanted to stop posting things I see or feel, openly on the webbie.

But I ended up having no avenue to express myself

To let go of issues that are troubling me

To relieve my tensions

I get restless, unwell

But in fact, there is nothing wrong with my physical body

But mentally, I am in a shit hole which I hope I will be able to get out of, soon

I hope that it is not myself but because of other factors which dropped me into this hole

I want to get out

To stop thinking

Be happy

To get on with life 

I want to do so.

I shall.

Soon.