Bochup..

After telling myself for the umpteenth time to ignore what others say or do
I think I have finally managed to give it up somewhat
It was never meant to be mine
And I'm much better holding on to things that matters.
I will just say that there are many degrees of friendship but they do not rank at the top with the rest of some of my other friends...

Learning to let go is not an easy process
Nor is it a conscious way
your subconscious have to tell you to do so...
It has to let go...

Yet, apparantly, research has shown that trying too hard to be happy is detrimental to health
Take it with a pinch of salt, yah.
As long as you are happy with your status quo, who cares...

Feeling Happy? Don't be too smug as chances are you will die young.
The Downsides of being too Happy

Run Photos!

For the 1st time ever!
I finally have pics of my 10km Run Marathon!
Yah, they tell me 10km is not a Marathon. I didn't exactly "run" also as I walked for a major part of it so I do not know what to call it...
I have taken part in 2 Standard Chartered Marathon, 1 Sun Down Marathon and my first Great Eastern Women's Run.
I have never have any official photos for the first 3!!
I dun know what is their criteria for taking photos but I'm excited as this is the first time I have got photos...
Heheheh!! :P

Next up, another 10km Standard Chartered Marathon and perhaps, in future, a half (21km) Marathon?

I am glad to announce also that with every run, I manage to improve on my previous timing, even though it is only a few seconds or minutes. heh!!!

Songkran?

Planning to go Songkran next year
To experience the festival for the very first time!! =D

Only problem is

Who do I ask to go along?

Ponders...

Thank you...

When people brings you down, there are others who brings you up. I'm glad I have some awesome frens around. =)

Thot of the moment for now..

And hopefully no down period for some time....

Lots of possible travel plans next year
From different different people.

* Happy :) *

India? China? Thailand? Europe? Dive?

But hor.... not enough $$!! =/
I need a part-time job to fuel all my travel lust...

Reviewing...

Stumbled upon my old blog
and i thot I closed them all
Saw something interesting and meaningful which I have written in 2008..
and was quite amazed that... hey! i can write rather well then!
But i seemed to have deteriotated over the years.
Should I post this on FB?

but i'm gonna make some changes to it..

我不应该在为那
可能与不可能
烦恼着可与不可以
选择放轻松
反而对自己好
也给心灵好过一些
随意交朋友
朋友圈也大了
时间过得充实多了
要来的事情
总有机会发生
一切只能顺其自然
希望自己能
理智的做对的选择
不要受到太多伤害
记得把悲伤抛开
只要幸福开心快乐就好
不要想太多
也不要强求太多吧

More bruises coming soon...

I just signed up for the next course
I must be crazy
or a sucker for such punishment
Get ready for the next round of bruising and abrasion!

must be in compensation for the "awesome" life I am having.
But somehow.. I think I will be happier without the group..
I dun understand why I'm so particularly sensitive abt them too
But I guess, drawing away will help to defray the hurts...

There are certainly times which I felt ok again
The doctor thought that my depression could not all be due to the meds
I guess it could have its roots somewhere?
But I do not know where
And since nobody there really understands
Or is helping me with it
The "illness" persist....
And I guess, will continue to persist....

I wonder why I'm ok with my other groups.. just not this one... :(

Is it really Me?

Unavailable...

Yes, I mentioned I had an appt
You asked if I can make it after the appt
I din reply as I dun know
And I'm tired of accommodating...

You asked me to buzz if I can make it
I did ask where thereafter
Your reply came 5hrs later
You say they are still there
Excuse me, the place is so big.
Till now, nobody told me where
Nobody message me

I said nobody message me anyway
And the next day, you message that:-
"You say you can't make it. We don't want to keep messaging you. Everybody was in the water so not able to reply."
You say everybody in the water so didn't check phone (as usual)
Me thinks:
All the time? But never mind...
Who's "We"? Got 'We"? Nobody say anything to me.
I didn't mention anything about the lateness of the reply.
I only say nobody message me.
Cos from the beginning till now, seriously nobody messaged me about the location or time of the event.
You only told me area, but not location.
So tell me, what am I supposed to think?

And when some others couldn't make it for some other events previously,
you guys will message or call them.
Different treatment, no?

Too sensitive I know
But that's who I am nowadays
I get hurt easily...
Sigh... 

Joking meh?..

ok.. i dun know u all that well...
So I wouldn't know if you are joking or not
I'm too sensitive and take things too seriously sometimes even though some may say otherwise (cues previous post) but if you condemn me where 'condemn' is a serious word to use, I do not think I have to stick around to listen right?

And then you all say I can't take jokes
I cannot see which part of the conversation can be construed as jokes.
Even though the rest may say so.
And when everyone in that group, besides the few that are MIA, groups together
How would a person feel?

So if I left the conversation alone, refusing to participate in it, I'm to withstand your attacks again?
U must be crazy....
Especially since I dun sense it as joking.


Sigh...

Call me sensitive...
I dun mind cos I know I am...
But can spare some thoughts for other people's feelings?

Stupid packing...

Stupid packing is stupid packing
There's no other explanation for this.

I can bear with a small box in a big box packing
But this one really takes the cake.

You put each award certificate into it's own little cardboard packing and send it over?!
Resulting in a cost of over USD$1k for the shipping?!
You must be kidding me!

And then you refuse to answer my email to you
BEST!!

And the fault actually lies at your side
Cos when I sent out the file, it included the names of all these people
But somehow or other, you neglected/forgotten to include them in your initial posting.
So I emailed you to ask for them
And you *(#$*#& had to ask me to send the file to you again.
So I send to you loh
Now you ask me to pay an exorbitant amount for shipping just cos of the way you ship?
I crazy or you crazy?

I'm ok if it's a small amount but not $1k...
And the envelopes are spoilt... =(

Duh....
 

Breaadd...

I love bread!!
Especially crosiants
Yes, I know it's buttery and fattening
But it's fluffy and yummy!!

I like wholemeals, seedy breads (those with lots of seeds de, like sunflower seeds etc.), traditional bread (not your gardenia or sunshine bread) as well as warm bread freshly out from the oven!!

I also like to buy this bread whenever I'm in JB and when it's available.. hehehe!

Bamboo Charcoal Bread!!!

The color may turn you off, but it's nice!!
Yummmmzzzz... =D

Penguin...

Cute little cushion cum soft toy Penguin that my friend helped me buy in HK. =D
Must try to see if I can reach that area of the airport to get some companionship for the Penguin when I go there at the end of the year. Heh!!

I have been looking for this type of toy ever since I saw a cow version at their house.
Searched around Singapore (i.e. went to all the toys shop at the shopping centers that I go to), to see if I can find the same or similar ones.
I finally saw one at Bugis, but... it was... the last one.. and out of shape.... =(
It must also have been hug carried squashed by lots of people too. =(
Saw similar ones but the fur material is.... =/

I hope I can find the shop when I go down HK at the end of the year!! =D

Falsies...

Attempted falsies (aka Fake eyelashes) at home in preparation for my upcoming Company's Dinner and Dance...

OMG! How do people withstand having things on their eyes?
I feel asleep after doing it.. kekekek!!
I woke up with the falsies still intact and still feeling uncomfortable with it on my eyes.

I think one of the main issues I have is that it looks unnaturally long!!
And it looks... kind of... separated from my natural lashes.
I have no qualms with my lashes just that they are shorter..
And (I thought) the eyes will look brighter, bigger, nicer with long thick falsies, though my falsies are just long, not thick...

Oh well, I shall try it and be armed with an arsenal of makeup in case I decide to take them off in the middle of the event. =P

Does it look ok?
No other makeup except for the eyeliner and the falsies...

Booking courts

Booking of the badminton courts seems to be an exercise in futility
It is SO DIFFICULT to find empty slots for the time you want,
the location you want
the date you want!!

The minute the facility opens up for booking in the morning, the place is booked!
How did those people book so quickly?!
I'm starting to suspect that it is a conspiracy where they already have deals in place to put that timing in the blocked zone once it opens up for booking.

Either that or they have a much faster browser...
=/
I need a faster browser, ya?

Webby to book
For Schools and Singapore Sports Council halls - http://www.icanbook.com.sg
For Community Centres - http://one.pa.gov.sg

Australia-fied...

Sometimes I wish I'm back in Australia, in the cooler weather months I mean...
Cos the hot weather months are a torture...
Where I can drive to any cafes or anywhere
Then just shop to my heart's content with no worries about monetary difficulties or anything
Where I dun think as much then
Where I can just do anything I want

But those times are passe
I cannot turn back time, nor go back to then

And even then, I wish there was some things that I could change
Like stop wearing glasses
See a doctor earlier about my acne problems
Stop wearing baggy clothings and super casual wear
Be more aware of how I look

I can't turn back time...
I just need to make time for myself
Just take the initiative to go where I wanna go.... alone....
And just relax
Stop thinking...

But then.... 

Le sigh....